Thoughts

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  It's been a rather crazy November, but now I've come to my favorite part of the month: Thanksgiving Break.

  When I was in school, this was the one of two times of the year I felt happy not having school. By this point, I was at the point of pulling out my hair and pulling out my classmates' hair. I didn't really care to be in school as an asocial person. I didn't care about my classmates or the people I loosely called "friends." It just wasn't a place where I wanted to be. So when Thanksgiving Break came around, I welcomed the quiet moments I had either at home or going to work with one of my parents, depending on the day. Sometimes I would sit in the church where my mother worked and just read or draw, or I would go on rides with my dad while he went to deliver packages for different people. It was a wonderful time for me to enjoy my own activities and be with people that I actually cared about.

  These days, I work alongside of a school system. Working with children with special needs, it can often fray my patience and my ability to remain calm. By the end of the day, I just want to crawl downstairs to my desk and just stare at my computer for a few hours. As much as I love those children and want what is best for them while they are in my care, I don't really find their company satisfying or enjoyable (especially right after a major holiday or special field trip). So the thoughts of not seeing them for a week or more give me a glimmer of sanity to look forward to. I can bare their screaming and teenage attitudes for a few more minutes, knowing that I will get some major relief in the future.

  And here I am, at the beginning of my break. I am sitting at my desk with music pumping into my ears. I have a steaming cup of black tea brewing, a Dr. Pepper I am working through, and a few things to keep my mind occupied outside of my bright screen: a book, and my journal. The next few days will give me plenty of time to rest, to write, and to prepare for a new future I have been meaning to put in place for quite some time. It is time for me to finally buckle down and work on what I truly want to work on. To give myself over to rest, reassurance, and a personal Renaissance I should have done months ago.

  With this in mind, I would like to wish everyone a wonderful season of life. No matter what you are going through, may your find the peace, joy, and love you are looking for. If you are in pain or sadness, may you be able to appreciate any lessons it teaches you and come out of it enlightened to who you are. If you are in a joyous and happy part of your life, may you take its lessons and its moments and enjoy them as fully as possible.

Elyon's Love and Strength,
Animus

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