Ani Was Writing

 Hola everyone! How are things going for you?   I realized that I haven't posted any blog posts since 30 April 2022. My apologies for that. I have had a lot going on in my life since then, especially trying to stream some writing (which is not going as well as I would like...) but I hope to backtrack and get some blog posts up for you soon!    For the record, I am writing on 28 May 2022 . I am using this substitute for the 30 April 2022 post.   With that in mind, I will be making some major changes to the blog: The name and naming scheme of the blog will change. I haven't decided on what yet, but I will do so. I just think that this scheme is no longer working and doesn't have the appeal I wanted it to.  I will be removing all of the short story series from my blog and moving them to Google Documents and my archive blog. These blog posts will still remain up for the sake of consistency, but they will link to the respective blog post in the archive. *  ...

   WARNING! This post contains opinions solely from me, Animus. Please take them with a grain of proverbial salt and read at your own risk. If you wish for a TL;DR, it is at the bottom of the post. Thank you, and have an awesome day!     The online world is the greatest recycling system humanity has ever created.      Not only does it recycle and repeat messages in fancy new packaging every few months, but drama online seems to be just as recycled on a longer timeline. Each time feels new and feels fresh, but in the grand scale of things online... It's all the same. Only the actors change, like a really bad theatre performance.  ~     I would like to tell the online world (and possibly the people who read this who I know in the offline world) that really should be taken with a heavy grain of salt.  The universe does not give a fuck about you or your personal life the way you think it does.     Now, I know there i...

      I stand outside with my mom and my oldest nephew on the cold Easter Vigil night. We were just spending time with the family, as evident by the small baby I'm holding onto.      "Take a look at that. A full moon, on Easter." My nephew grins, "From what I've read, everyone is calling it the Resurrection Moon."      "Ah, that's really cool." My mom smiles. She then looks to me with her child-like glee. "He's really impressing me with his interest in this stuff." She whispers as she walks by me. I smirk and bounce the baby on my arm as we all walk back into the house.      This little moment reminded me how funny it seemed that the full moon was on Easter. It's been a really interesting situation that made me think about what kinds of things could be in line with each other spiritually that most people think couldn't be in line with each other.      More exploration to be had. More things to be considered....

 Hello! How's it going?     I found a new song that kind of explains the new mindset that I am hoping to adopt more of while I get better. I'm still trying to get my stuff done in time for May's writing month. I am also looking into doing something that will keep you all up to date on me when I'm not hanging around here.      I don't really have much else to say this week. I haven't been super social to begin with, and the times I have been... well, it didn't work out. So yeah. I'm just going to keep things easy.  Love and Strength,  Animus

      Do you ever feel like things are edgy, even if they are not? Or that you are trapped in a place that you are trying to break out of?     This has been me all week. Trying to break out of old habits and mindsets and trying to let go of things that are probably just me being petty and weak. Trying to pull away from an edge that I don't want to go down because I already imploded and don't want to do it again.      I'm finally at a point where I can feel that better things are just on the other side. I'm trying to be more involved in a social life outside of my online life, trying to put myself out there, trying to express how I feel without immediately second-guessing myself.      And now I'm here. Just on the edge of something. And don't feel like I'm able to cross without something going wrong and everything imploding again.      Please bare with me for a little while. Like many of my blog posts recently, I'll pr...