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  PR #052025 Reported 2 July 2025 (Backlogged) Project 1: Writing     Progress made to Planning: 100%     Progress made to Writing: 35%          Planned Action: Start Planning Next Project  Start writing Project 2: Weight Management     Current Weight: 235.2     Weight Loss/Gain: +3 lbs (+1.8 lbs total for 2025)     Planned Action: Limit Sugary Drinks and Snacks Monitor Calorie Intake Project 3: Crochet     Progress on Crochet Projects: 95%     Current Project Workload: 1 Project     Planned Action: Continue crocheting project Project 4: Job Hunt     Progress Made: 100%     Jobs Applied for: 0     Planned Action Apply for 1 job per week Plan Digital Content for After Digital Retreat

  Inauguration By Idris Goodwin and Nico Wilkinson   I will admit, I feel very lucky to have a copy of this. It is a limited edition poetry collection (literally only 10 poems in the booklet) (Is it a booklet at that rate? There has to be a proper name for this kind of thing.) written by two people who came to my university to read some of the work. It was written just after the 2016 US elections. Who would have thought that almost a decade later, I would pick it up again to see how I felt about it.   I will admit, when I got this back in 2016, I was very tired. I was finishing up my last semester of university, just trying to get through the last of it as I started a new job. Then elections hit. And the results hit. And I was tired of everything.   The only memory I have of the day after election day was coming into my creative non-fiction class and having the most tense case of goosebumps and exhaustion I had since I started going to university. The professor of th...

   There are times where I am reminded of something darker in my mind that I really need to take care of.    Heading into this month, I am just really tired of everything. I'm tired of people, of places, of things, of just having to be around. But I know I am needed to be around the people, places, things, and times. It is part of living, I suppose.    I have often wondered what it would be like to have a time where I could not do that. Maybe it is the fact that 9 May was the death anniversary of the last lover I had, and losing him still messes with me. Coming to grips with potential realities that either mean I am alone the rest of my life or that I may find someone to love bothers me. But I know it is something I need to deal with. It's been eating me on the inside for almost a year now. Or, well, basically a year now. Probably longer than that, if I'm honest.    I am still struggling. I feel it. It probably isn't helping the regular monthly mi...

    It doesn't take much to keep yourself eternally alive.   In the past, any animate or inanimate being used to question its permanence. The animate ones were the worst about it. Those ones would constantly struggle with how to keep their identities and achievements alive, passed on through the life and death of their connections and larger social structures. The inanimate ones understood a simple truth that may give the animate ones some insight.    Things must remain or become whole to gain permanence.   Take for example, us. The masks. We have remained a permanent, stable part of existence for as long as their have been those who don us. Inanimate or animate, we as masks are integrated into their being, giving them a bearing that keeps the madness of permanence at bay. As long as we remain whole, we remain. And because of that, we have become a bit of a comfortable bearing.    That is, of course, until some inanimate or animate one gets the br...