Ani Was Writing

 Hey everyone. Sorry for the lack of posts for the last month. I am going to be back-posting the last four posts (28 Jan, 4 Feb, 11 Feb, and 18 Feb) after I post this one. It's been an odd month of getting stuff done but also feeling rather off.      A lot of that feeling came to a final climax yesterday when I was thinking of a specific word and how it has affected me my adult life.      This word gives me a mixed bag of reactions.      For some context, I was at work when I realized I wasn't feeling my usual happy, friendly self around my co-workers. Which is odd, because usually I am talkative and happy around everyone. As I went about my day at work, a single thought sent me down to a childhood wound that I thought I took care of years ago: "I don't deserve any of this."     To some extent, I still feel this is true. I don't feel I deserve to have the job I do, the connections I have, and the life in my body. The thought st...

    You thought aliens existed on their own, huh? You think this crazy universe just has random schemes of random life just dotted around?     Oh, no. We were told eons ago about that. The others even told us that.      We kept sending our probes into space first. Trying to see what we could find. Instead, we were sending the first of many bacteria into the universe. Who knew the bacteria could go catatonic and keep themselves alive in the inner workings of all those probes? And as each probe crashed into a new planet or star or moon, it gave the bacteria a place to escape and find a way to survive on a new astronomical rock. Heck, it even survived on gas giants sometimes! That's why some of the aliens have a hard time staying here for long. They need all those gases in the right amounts.      You know, they taught us eons ago not to just throw stuff out. It was all important, and needed to be recycled or properly disposed to keep our li...

I only wish I was kidding.      I thought it was bad enough that my husband left me for some troll of a hoe. Caught them in our bed, even. Typical tale, huh? But here I am, having the time of my life with my long island ice tea and my tears. At least the bartender is leaving me alone at my little table.      But I thought I was going to stay alone until I saw a cat land on my table. It looked like an odd cat, running around on my arms and picking at my hair. Then someone sat across from me, looking worse for wear than me. I thought she looked familiar, and I was right.      "Hey Mrs. Benson! How's it going?" The now-adult woman said. "You remember me, right? Paige?" Paige. Oh, sweet Paige. Used to babysit my kids during the summer while my husband and I had to work. I spent many days in that hot office, the fan turned up as high as it could go without making too much noise, wondering how Paige was enjoying herself with the kids on their adven...

      There is a lot of debate on whether or not the Bible agrees with the general consensus of scientific knowledge of Earth. A lot of it seems to jokingly center on the dinosaurs in the online spaces. But I have often wondered about how the Bible's story of creation -especially human creation- lines up with our scientific consensus of how everything was created.     For the sake of all our mental sanity, let's temporarily leave the "whens" of creation out of the picture. That in itself is a whole part of the debate that usually ends in frustration, especially when certain groups of people get involved.     With that aside, my idea is that the first homo sapiens were the "Adam and Eve" we get in our Bible story. (Granted, there were more homo sapiens than what we considered the first humans in the Bible, but I'm tabling that discussion for the sake of time on this post. That and because I have a rather odd concept of how these two ideas can be melded ...