Some Sort of Thoughts on Valentine's Day

    This Valentine's Day will probably come and go for me this year. 

    Much like previous years, I am not in a relationship with someone, let alone someone who is excited to show some tokens of love to me. Which is fine. I will probably be sad about it toward the evening when I hear about how all the couples in my life are doing. Social media will show me both lavish displays and heartbreaking temper tantrums. I know how this day goes for most of the public displays of love or "love," depending on the situation. 

    But I'm jaded this year. A lot of my emotional energy is already drained as it is. So I may just use this day to do what I can to restore myself. 

    Chances are, in a few hours, I will be playing games with my group of friends that are jokingly called "the Civ bitches." Or maybe not (it depends on what everyone's plans are for the day). And I will probably have dinner like I normally do on Saturdays. Maybe my family will come by to say hi. Heck, as this is being published, I am probably at work for the small amount of time I am. 

    All of this is what I will do. Nothing special. Nothing over-the-top. But maybe that's for the best this way. Maybe this is the year where I acknowledge the quiet, over-looked love that I get on a regular basis. The stuff that I overlook because it is not over-the-top. It's still special though. That is what I should focus on this year. Not the crazy displays. The quiet ones. 

    I kinda still want some of that display. But I know a lot of that is more for my ego's external validation than my internal validation. That is fine. That can be for a time once I get my internal validation more sorted out.