Things Feel Weird

     So, I'm going to be completely honest with y'all. Since this is basically a sudo-journal for me. Not my actual brain-dumping journal, but the next closest thing.

    I did get a lot done. A lot of mostly crochet and writing. And I'm going to keep going with that on my livestreams with maybe some games y'all can play on the side. Still working on how that looks, but we'll get it figured out in the long run.

    That said, I am not 100% sure what I want to do with this new "freshly baked loaded potato" of a computer I have. I know a lot of it is games right now. But I also know I need to get some work done on it at some point. So it will probably be a lot of writing. 

    But -as my blog post title says- things feel weird. I don't really feel super connected to y'all anymore. Which is a good thing for me mentally. But also not? Because now my offline stress is through the roof. I think this is my sign to understand that I really need to just focus on one or two things at a time. Pick one offline and one online maybe? I'm not sure. I know I just need to get through Christmas at this rate. I've picked up too much offline to do. So once Christmas is over, I'll be able to avoid church-related stuff like a plague and just be able to get my personal stuff done. Only show up for D&D over there for that.

    Maybe part of it is the re-adjustment of how the world works over here in the US again. I know a major shift has happened. And feelings are definitely mixed over here. Mostly happiness. But I can feel this underlying hurt. And disgust. I think a lot of it is just how we tend to treat each other after major situations like this. Ones where there is supposedly a loser and a winner. When -at the end of the year- all that will matter is if our government can function better for its nation. No matter which part of its nation it chooses to focus on. 

    It also might hint at a personal evolution I'm going through. But I don't want to really go too much into that right now, considering I'm in the middle of it and I feel like talking about it too much will screw with whatever is happening. But yeah. Chaos abounds on the Custodius Continuum. Maybe in the world in general.

    We'll all have to see how it goes.