This Week's Conundrum

   I've been going back and forth with my routine this week. It doesn't help that I have been on vacation and have had way too much time to slack off. It is much easier for me to have a routine when there is a solid structure to work around.

  "Maybe you need a new solid structure to set yourself on." Renegade suggests. I didn't realize she was nearby. I take in a deep breath and catch the smell of herbs. It helps to clear my head slightly. "I think you are right, Renegade. I need a solid routine or ritual to center around. But what could I use?"

  "What about a time of day?" Renegade says, "A certain time of the day where everything is usually the same."

  I think to my normal schedule. In the morning, things are mellow until twenty minutes later when I am running out the door to work. The afternoons are also work-centered, so those are both off the table. At night, I'm usually sleeping, so that only leaves a certain time of the day. "Evening." I say after my thoughts finish their roll. "That is where I have the time to re-center my body and mind."

  "That would be a wise decision." Renegade agrees. "Hopefully, you will do it sooner rather than later."

  I stare up at the clock on my computer screen. Renegade look sup as well and sighs. It's almost midnight. She pats my shoulder and walks away. I know what that means and it annoys me. Sounds like a test to prove my self-discipline.