Thoughts for the Void
I don't often speak out about my opinions in public. I understand that most of my opinions are fairly obtuse and definitely not popular in the slightest. So I will simply toss them out into this Void that is my blog.
Please keep in mind that all of these opinions are from April 2023 me. At any point I can change them. Speaking of...
- You can change your mind whenever you want. There is nothing and no-one stopping you. I have run into too many people online that like to pull up old tweets or internet ramblings as some sort of "gotcha" against the person they want to hurt. But this -in the end- means barely anything. Could it hurt them in the future with certain things? Maybe, assuming that other people tied to a target will agree with the attacks and accusations. But by the time anyone draws their last breath, none of this will matter. None of it.
- Everyone you meet online is a character. Everyone you meet in person could be too. Again, another opinion based on an observation. Many people (myself included) will filter their online character to be far more interesting than their real life is. When you meet someone in person, they could also be a character, trying to make themselves appear more of a certain way to a new friend, co-worker, or stranger they just met. I think it is best to assume that people just want to be treated as normal as possible. Anyone who doesn't want to be treated as a normal person need to do some self-evaluation.
- Most of the extreme "societal norms" are a result of too little or too much. And yes, I am including abnormal sexual tendencies, social identities, and every little quirk a single person can develop in their life. Chances are, something in your life (probably in childhood) sparked. Usually, it tends to be too little or too much parental attention, but it could also be too much or too little challenge, maturity, opportunity, and anything other experience you can pinpoint. My favorite example is always sexual tendencies. I think the tendency to pick a specific type of sexual partner depends on how the parents treated you. Are you a man who didn't have a great father figure? Chances are, you may see yourself as gay in order to find a man to fill that role while also reaping the joys of sex. Are you a girl who had a rocky relationship with your mom? Chances are you will either go for the nurturing lesbian or -in an act of rebellion- go for the psychotic partner of any variety. But, as I said, I think this is a broad observation of the many niche communities in our society at large.
- Ego is the root of all evil, not money. Small pieces of paper and plastic are not harmful on their own. They simply exist. But thanks to human ego, we find them all over the ground, in the hands of corporations, or used to bribe the next senator or representative to a particular side of a situation. Human ego is one of the most toxic things I have found, and I mean toxic in a literal sense. I have yet to meet one person who is completely removed from toxic ego. I often wonder if this was the "original sin" that most Christians would reference when they talk about sins and all that. Ego tends to be the divider, the gatekeeper, and the frail backbone of many problems. As humans, we have yet to determine a proper, healthy way to keep our collective and individual egos in check. (I know that by writing this long blog, I am contributing to my own ego as well as collective ego. So you don't have to tell me about it.)
- The things you choose to identify with or do in your life are based off of a subconscious choice. Most people who are "anti-gay" or whatever they call themselves now actually have a good point, but it is a bit tucked away. I don't believe your identity is a product of some genetic code or biological marker. I believe your identity is entirely based on the subconscious choices you make in result of what happens around you. It ties back to my third point in a major way. If something happens to you, and your mind feels the need to handle it a certain way, it will decide to handle it that way whether you actively make that choice or not. This is why I find the argument of "well that's how [deity] made me" or "that's just in my nature" a little flawed. If you look at children who are under 7 or 8 years old, they generally have no concept of biological sex, gender, mental disorder, or anything that people thing they would. They are still learning to navigate their world with their own overloaded senses. But depending on the childhood, the brain will experience something that is so over-stimulating or so under-stimulating that it chooses to find a way to remedy and correct that feeling. For those of you who would like to dive into this further, I would recommend starting with yourself and a therapist or psychologist. Someone who is specially trained to dive into the mind and help you fish out what you need and want, no matter how repressed it could be.
- Nobody cares. This is the one I will stop at for now. Not that it matters, because nobody cares what I say, do, or think. In a way, that sounds horrible. But in the bigger picture, this is really nice. It means that I can throw my words onto this screen, ramble for a long time, then walk away and do something that I like to do without a care in the world. This is a byproduct of that old saying, "Don't care about what other people think." If you don't care, then no one will care about you. And it does sound really sad, but it is also very nice to know that by the time that embarrassing thing happened or you gave a horrible opinion, no one cares. I am just another voice in the cacophony. Another soul in the sea of chaos around me. And that's fine. I will gladly float by and contribute in the best ways I can without really caring about how other people think. I will speak the truth I have come to know over my 30 years and counting of life. I will tell people what I think to their face, knowing full well that they will probably not care. If they do, it will only be for the short time that their lives will exist here.
That's really it for now. I got a lot off my chest by doing that. So thank you for this. More fiction is coming, and I'm going to try my best to pick up on my streaming schedule for May and beyond. Until then, I hope and pray you have a good day, week, month, year, and life in general. May you learn and grow and expand your views. May you find the truth and gain the courage and wisdom to speak on it when needed. May you find the strength to live your life as you choose, and the peace to accept whatever comes your way because of your life path.
Elyon's Love and Strength
Ani