Getting to the Edge

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     Do you ever feel like things are edgy, even if they are not? Or that you are trapped in a place that you are trying to break out of?

    This has been me all week. Trying to break out of old habits and mindsets and trying to let go of things that are probably just me being petty and weak. Trying to pull away from an edge that I don't want to go down because I already imploded and don't want to do it again. 

    I'm finally at a point where I can feel that better things are just on the other side. I'm trying to be more involved in a social life outside of my online life, trying to put myself out there, trying to express how I feel without immediately second-guessing myself. 

    And now I'm here. Just on the edge of something. And don't feel like I'm able to cross without something going wrong and everything imploding again. 

    Please bare with me for a little while. Like many of my blog posts recently, I'll probably be posting about my internal struggles. Part of me hopes that someone will understand and show some support, despite my doubts. Another part of me hopes that by sharing, someone can avoid the problems I am having right now. 

    I don't know what lies ahead. All I know is that things are happening again both internally and externally that I am just trying to endure.

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