Thinking About Stuff

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 Normally, I would have something nicer to post for my little non-fiction post of the month. But this week I have been running through some thoughts in my head that I feel I can share with you to either get some feedback or just to get this out of my head. I'll take either/or honestly. 

  • I feel like most fast food restaurant higher ups (thinking general manager and owner) don't really care about their workers. After being at my last job in the school system, switching over to a fast food place has been difficult, especially when I watch co-workers experience an issue and only our directors (a tier down from the GM and owner) seem to care about what is going on with us. 

  • I have accepted the fact that I am a difficult yet boring person to be around. Especially right now as I am regressing and re-progressing through my emotional life. But I have realized through the relationships I have had in the past (especially the last two) that I am a fairly boring person. I don't really like going out and doing much, more in the colder weather than the warmer.

  • I do not have the energy to accept people for who they are right now. I feel like that word has also been tainted a little. As a collective Internet population, I have noticed the term "accepted" seems to be used as "I am unconditionally heard, seen, and included in everything for this person." But that's not what that means. Technically speaking, being accepted means "generally believed or recognized to be valid or correct." Which this has to do with facts and evidence, not people's feelings. Same with the term "valid" I find. Being "valid" applies to logical discussions or conversations around facts, not about people. 

  • I find that people are too wrapped up in how they feel or how they perceive things that it takes them a moment to get our of their own way. Then again, people tend to get in their own way. That includes me as well. I'm still learning how to get out of my own way, so I am by no means different from anyone else.

    These are just a few things. I'm still going through a lot of other thoughts in my head and trying to figure out where they came from and how to orient them to a better energy. In the meantime, I will be here just writing and getting through the things I need to get to. 

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Written February 17, 2025

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